Haven’t updated in awhile. Don’t really know what to say; my life is pretty boring. The cleaning business isn’t taking off like I had hoped. I think people are more concerned about heating their houses this winter rather than cleaning their houses. Fuel prices have dropped dramatically all over the country; except for here. Even though we have a refinery in our back yard, we are still over a dollar more a gallon than the Lower 48.
I’ve been pretty down lately. Seems like no matter what I try to do, it just ain’t good enough. Then there’s the feeling of ‘why bother?’ that penetrates most aspects of my life. I can’t seem to find motivation to do much of anything, and that does bother me. I have nothing to work towards, no retirement with the one I love, or anything like that. I just go through the motions, day after day. No joy, very little happiness.
I think that if I could, I would simply pack up and move. Alaska has been the best experience of my life, but anymore I am feeling so isolated. My kids and grandkids are so far away; immediate family consists of a dog and two cats. My phone never rings anymore. The supposed ‘friends’ that I had a year ago are long gone. Left about the same time the money did. Interesting, but oh so predictable I guess.
The thought of facing yet another set of holidays alone is, daunting to say the least. I barely made it through last years’ set. I don’t know if I can do it this year. Or if I even want to.
November 16, 2008 at 8:47 am
As always, you’re invited to spend some time with us over the Holidays. We’d love to see you. By the way, you do like mincemeat pie, right? : ) I’m usually the only one at Thanksgiving that likes MMpie- I’ve save some for you!
How’s your time in God’s word coming along? Having daily quiet time with Him could be just what you’re missing right now. I find that usually when I’m feeling “out of the loop” it’s because I’m neglecting the most important relationship (and reason for living) of them all. He’s still there, always waiting for us to come Home.